Friday, September 25, 2009

summing up 8 months of life in Namibia...

My creative brother, along with animoto.com, helped me put together this short video of pictures of the places we went, the people we met and will remember forever. I would love for you all to enjoy it!



Christ is the hope for the world, for every sinner, everywhere. For me, for you, and every precious life in this video. May it always be on our hearts to pray for the world to know Him.

Summer reflections...

Now that it is officially fall, I figured I should get back in gear and post and update of all the crazy happenings of the summer. Anytime I step back to reflect on a certain season, I am always amazed with the beautiful and unexpected ways that God shows up. This summer was no different. The way that the Lord provided ministry opportunities, a job that just doesn't feel like a job to me, reconnection in friendships, and wonderful new ones, reminds me that He has called us to make the most of every opportunity in the here and now.
I am seeking His leading and His direction for what the future holds for me, and I have never been more sure that a life of ministry is what my heart was made to do. However, in all of that, the Lord has been speaking clearly to me these words: "Wait for me, Seek ME." I am so inclined to seek the good things of God-- his plan, his direction, his answers... and I know there is nothing inherently wrong with that. But in the midst of seeking those things, is it possible to somehow lose sight of the truth that apart from ALL the answers, God is enough? He is all that I need, even if I never get a clear answer for my questions. That He alone is all I need to desire, even if that means a lifetime of waiting. That if I could just learn what it means to seek His heart alone, and learn to be satisfied in the times of waiting simply because I have his presence, then walking in His will and hearing His voice will be the obvious overflow of my heart.
I've been so blessed that the Lord has chosen to speak those thoughts so clearly to my heart...that He has not kept silent, even in a time of waiting. He is SO good, continually beyond my expectations and continues to keep His promise, that He is 'able to do immeasurably more than we could have ever asked or imagined.' (Ephesians 2:20)

Here is a little picture recap of life this summer...


The girls from our original team in Rehoboth came to visit Mackenzie and me in Kansas City. What a sweet time to reconnect and talk about all the amazing things God did in us during our time in Namibia.


This is one of the amazing students in the middle school ministry at Colonial. We had an awesome summer, full of theme nights and talks about who Jesus says He is. This was after our "muck fest" theme night (we had a giant mud fight!)


I still LOVE camp...there is just nothing like it. Students open up and see God is a new way, and I love getting to be there for that. This was our last night of camp with our students this summer, and we had an amazing group of Colonial interns who came out to visit the youth staff and middle school students who were there.


I also had the awesome privilege to take students to Greenbay, Wisconsin for a Youthworks Mission trip. These trips get students out of their everday environment and give them opportunities to serve a community. My group was incredible, as they served and loved the residents of a nursing home so well!


My parents celebrated their 30th wedding anniversary on August 11. Matt, Shea, and I threw them a surprise party and it was a blast. I am so thankful for the unbelievable gift of the family God has given me.


Last week, I also had the opportunity to share with a small group of people about my time in Namibia. What a blessing to my heart it was to still feel such interest and support from my wonderful church family and friends, even four months after we have returned. I had a sweet time going through pictures and organizing them to tell of the great things God has done! You all are such a gift in my life, and I thank the Lord for people who love His Kingdom and have loved me so well in the way they have encouraged me to follow Christ anywhere.

You can continue to pray that God keeps me seeking His heart first, and as I do that, He will give me a confidence for my next step in where He would have me.
Thank you for investing in me and for your interest in my life and ministry.

Much love to you all,
Kristen

Sunday, May 31, 2009

endings with a purpose...

Has a month really gone by already? Thanks for your patience in my processing and sharing stories. Thanks for your questions, and all your incredible "welcome homes" :) I love you all!

The last five weeks have been so full of change and transition. Moving back to the most familiar place in the world to me, I had expectations and excitement for what it would be like. I had a sweet and low-key summer planned, providing me time to reconnect with people and process well through all of my experiences from my time in Namibia.

As usual, though, the Lord had different plans for me. About three weeks ago, I was given the opportunity for a job doing student ministries at Colonial Presbyterian, a church in Overland Park. This is such a sweet gift from the Lord! I had no idea that He would place me doing exactly what I wanted to be doing so quickly. Within ONE week I heard about the job and started the job (I'm serious when I say this was FAST!) :) However, it added just one more thing to transition into, and one more thing to transition out of.

Life has been full of that lately. For the better part of a year now, I have been transitioning in and out of new experiences and constantly changing seasons of life... And while nearly all of it has been good and exciting, I am still grieving over things lost through it all. I wonder if I'll ever get used to the constant change that life brings about. I have always been one to try to hold on to the sweetest moments as long as I can...I have a hard time letting go and moving on, even when it is clear that it is what it is time to do.

Through it all, though, God is clearly revealing to me that He is in this ongoing process of changing and transforming me that won't end until I get to heaven. That means that there will always be loss, and there will always be blessing-- and all of it is meant to point me to Christ and His glorious cross. The ups and downs of this journey following Him will continue no matter where I am...Africa, Kansas City, and anywhere else He leads me. An incredibly wise woman shared with me that rather than looking at our lives like a line that has starts and stops as each season of life begins and ends, we should look at our lives more similarly to how God sees it...not defined by time or by beginnings and endings. Viewing my life as a circle of experiences and opportunities-- that each one influences the next, and all of them will always be a part of me. This has helped my heart cope just a little better with all the change that is surrounding me. It's so sweet to know that in the Lord, things come to an end with a purpose. Most likely, we have gotten all that we can out of each experience, and the Lord has new places and opportunities for us that will hold all the "new" that we've learned.

So even though wrestling through the transitions has been difficult, I am more convinced than ever that God has not left me unchanged. He will continue to lead me on this journey of new experiences centered on bringing Him glory with my life. And all of them will leave me different...better...closer to the cross. That's what I long for. May you and I count all of it as loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing JESUS, who we follow no matter what the cost.

Learning to trust and follow Jesus more everyday,
Kristen

How you can be praying:
-That the Lord continues to use all of what I experienced in Namibia to reveal more of Himself to me in His perfect timing and ways, and that He would equip me to share those lessons with others.
-For the relationships that I am beginning to build with students and families at Colonial, that God would open doors for me to share Christ and display His worth through my life and words.
-For my heart to steadfastly trust God's plan through all the transition.
-For my sweet friends Rivers and Dave (who many of you know!) as they settle into their new home in Budapest, Hungary and share the gospel with those who have never heard...Check out their website linked on the right.

I can never say enough how grateful I am to you all for your love and support and continued prayers even now that I am home. Look in your mailboxes for an update letter soon where I will share more about Namibia and what's next for me. :)

Thursday, April 30, 2009

from raw reality to distant memory...

Stunned.
This is the only word I can currently come up with to explain what I feel. I am officially home after long hours and days of traveling and debriefing. I'm back in the place that is most familiar to me, and as I drive down the streets of Overland Park, I am baffled by how normal it all feels. And at the very same time, I am perplexed by the thought that less than a week ago, I was in another world, living a life that has now become a memory.
The weirdest thing is how fast life can move from raw reality to distant memory.
Yet I still strongly feel the weight of all of it...of everything I've seen, every person I've met, every need I couldn't possibly meet. It's overwhelming to try to share just what my heart feels knowing it has said goodbye to the people and experiences that have made me see the world, myself, and the Lord in a whole new way.
I have been reading one of John Piper's latest books called Spectacular Sins. It's an incredible book meant to help us wrestle with the issue of God's sovereignty over the things that are hardest for us to handle in this life: death, tragedy, despair, and all the sin that happens in a fallen world. I came across this passage that beautifully articulates the struggle and emotion that accompanies our journey following Christ. The words are a sweet comfort to my soul as I wrestle with all that I have learned and experienced in Namibia. Our lives as followers of Christ... sorrowful, yet always rejoicing. It MUST be this way, or we are living unaware of the reality of the world.

"...We believe and pursue the truth that God is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in him. But we also know that in this life, joy in God is never unmixed with sorrow. Never. Love won't allow that. Our banner bears the seal of 2 Corinthians 6:10 "sorrowful yet always rejoicing." We are pushing our way through a blood-spattered life that makes us feel connected to the world and disconnected at the same time. We are here but not here. Love binds us to the tragic earth, and love binds us to the Treasure of heaven. Christians are strange. Our emotions are inexplicable in ordinary terms. "Let those who [mourn] mourn as though they were not mourning, and those who [rejoice] rejoice as though they were not rejoicing." 1 Corinthians 7:30. That is our experience." -John Piper, Spectacular Sins, page 29

I am embracing that truth more than ever. That our experience here on earth is strange, connected to the world, getting dirty in the mess of life, yet beautifully disconnected, living for the ultimate reward of eternity with Jesus. And this is just the beginning...
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I plan on keeping the blog up and will continue to share thoughts in the next couple weeks, and who knows...maybe longer! :) I plan on sharing with you piece by piece about the things I have learned and the impact it has had and will have on my life by answering different questions. We did this in our debrief, and it helped immensely to sum up some of my experiences. Questions such as "What were your top 3 moments?" "What was your lowest point?" "How will you approach life differently as a result of your life and ministry here?" I hope these questions will give you a picture of the way the Lord has worked over the last eight months.

Thanks for your love and support.

The final goodbyes...

Words cannot express how much I love my Rehoboth team... At our goodbye dinner, we kept the mood light! :) These precious friends have been such a source of encouragement and support.

Lavinia (from our high school Bible study)...One of my hardest goodbyes was with this sweet girl. I am so confident God is going to use her life in mighty ways.

This moment will be forever captured in my memory. As I waved goodbye out the window leaving school for the last time, this was what I saw.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Little by little...

How can I begin to sum up all that the last two weeks have entailed? It has been full as my ministry and life in Rehoboth, Namibia has been nearing its end. Little by little (mostly through pictures), I will try to share with you some of the incredible moments and experiences I have had.


We had a great trip north to Rundu (does that sound familiar?...it was where we were originally placed in Namibia!) to visit our friends Tricia and Nicole over Easter weekend. A wonderful time of fellowship and getting a taste of the ministry they have there, working with orphans and vulnerable children. These are some of the precious kids we met and got to spend the day with.


We joined our teammate Brittany to host a "women's night" for our high school girls' Bible study and the Bible study that Brittany leads at her church. It was an amazing night, complete with games, a movie, and delicious snacks. The best part, however, was the opportunity we had to share about purity. One of our friends from Rehoboth, Tracy, shared her personal testimony about how the Lord has transformed her life in this area and that was really powerful for our girls to hear.


We had to say goodbye to our girls the following Tuesday, which was really hard. They are the most lovable group of girls and have been such a joy to get to know.


Our last Tuesday together, we did Campus Crusade's Solarium cards with the girls. They loved it, and it was an amazing door for them to express things they typically are afriad to share in large group settings.

This past Tuesday, our team got together to go on "tour" with a program called Clown Worship. We began at my school (Kwakwas), and traveled to two other farm schools (a lot of driving!) to perform.

The Clown Worship program is one of the most creative ways I have ever seen to share the gospel, and the kids LOVED it. (Our team also had a blast if you can't tell!) It is also incredible because it involves NO spoken word, so the kids understand every last bit of it!

I had a great lunch with the teachers that I have worked with these past 8 months and come to love. So many goodbyes and lots of closure...but the Lord has blessed all of it.

I had to say goodbye to my kids on Wedensday, as it was my last day at school with them. It was really hard to say goodbye...I love them more than words can say. They really have captured my heart.


We are now in Windhoek, the capital, spending time with our team and saying our final goodbyes before we fly out on Sunday. You can be praying for us as we process, debrief with our team leaders, and say goodbye to this country that has become our home for the last eight months. God has been SO good to bless these last weeks. His hand has been over every minute of my time here, and I see His glory brightly through it all.
Thanks for praying. I have lots more pictures of other great moments from the past two weeks which I hope to post this weekend!

Much love,
Kristen

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

The long awaited day

With less than two weeks until I am on a plane home, I have HUGE anticipation of the reunions I will have…especially the first reunion I will have getting off the plane in Kansas City with my family. I just cannot wait to be home, in a place that is familiar to me, a place that I love because the people I love are there. There really is nothing like being home—there is just something about it that I think will make me always long for the comfort of it, even when I know that certain seasons of life call us to move on and I can’t always be there.

And as I have been feeling giddy with excitement about this upcoming homecoming, I have been thinking about why I have this love of home. More than all the reasons above, I think this love is meant to point me to Christ…to remind me of what I was made for. My real home. That my longing for my home on earth is to point me to what I long for most…the home I will have forever. And not because heaven will be easy or because it will be nice to be reunited with relatives, but because I was made to worship Jesus forever.

For these past eight months, I have known this day was coming and carried it around in the back of my mind to get me through the hardest days. Knowing that sooner or later, the day would come when I would return home, and have the comfort of all the home means.

And isn’t that what we’re called to do with this life here on earth? To carry around in the back of our minds the truth that this isn’t forever. That no matter how rough it gets, no matter how much of ourselves we give, no matter how tired and spent we feel, we have something much better to keep us going, the joy set before us. The same joy that motivated Jesus to endure the cross—perfect fellowship with God is what we have set before us. This joy needs to motivate me to keep going, keep pressing on to give myself away for the gospel, no matter how hard it feels in this life…because there is a perfect joy set before me. One I can be giddy with excitement about. One that is made that much more beautiful and complete when we have given our all while waiting for the long-awaited day…

I know my joy will be full in the airport on April 27…

but my joy will not be complete until the day that I see the face of my Jesus. The one who I will follow for life…who I long to recklessly pursue until I meet him face to face. It can motivate me to live the way we are called to live here on this earth...knowing that the best is coming later. And I need His strength to live like that—knowing that I can endure all things for the joy set before me. To be lost and consumed with my glorious King, Jesus, the one I have followed for life.

I love the way Charlie Hall articulates this thought in one of his songs...

"And finally the voice I have followed for LIFE has a glorious face that is lit up with light…”

That is going to be joy beyond compare. Let's live like it.

Praying for your heart to rejoice in the sweet truth that this world is not our home, no matter where we are or what our circumstances, we can look to Jesus with anticipation for that great day...


Love you all!

Kristen


Wednesday, April 8, 2009

so much going on!

Sorry I haven't been consistent on the blog lately... We have come to our last three weeks here, and things have seemed busier than ever! God has been so good in providing great opportunities for our team, as well as some good times of closure in the different ministries we have been involved with. Here is a picture recap of just some of the happenings of the past two weeks.

I took a day off school to join some of my teammates at the preschool in the poorest part of our town. I come ALIVE with these kids. We did a program called "clown worship" and I had a BLAST enjoying and loving on these precious guys (as well as making a fool of myself acting like a clown!)

This is Michael and I after he got his face painted to match mine! :)

We only have one more week left of our study with the high school girls from the hostel. We've started a new form of "discussion"- we use posters so they can write the answers and the girls have responded so well. It has been a JOY to see these girls pursue a greater knowledge of God.

Our study is called "My Heart, Christ's Home" and Mackenzie made the girls journals shaped like houses...they've been a great tool to use to encourage reflection.


At school, I have been having so much fun with my grade four kids. We did paper mache, and made our own Easter eggs. I've never seen kids so excited about balloons and newspaper before!

The finished products...painted Easter eggs. Happy Easter! Easter has provided great opportunities to share the gospel in class with these kids...even with the language barrier, some are starting to get it! Praise God.


I am beginning to recognize just how much of my heart will be left with these kids. God has been good to bless me with some of the sweetest times with them even in spite of how much of a challenge it has been.

-In other news, we have two new team members. Josh and Nikki have joined our team in Rehoboth, and Nikki has been praying about taking over our girls' Bible study at the high school. We are so excited that they are here, investing in the community, and also excited that our girls' group has the potential to continue on!
-Mackenzie, Catherine, and I are headed to Rundu for Easter weekend to visit our AIM friends Trisha and Nicole and to get a glimpse of what ministry is like in northern Namibia.
-You can begin pray for our goodbyes, for closure as we finish up ministry in Rehoboth, and for the travel we have ahead of us.
-We leave Rehoboth two weeks from tomorrow (on April 23), and fly out of Namibia on April 26.

I sincerely thank you for your prayers...I continue to be amazed at the faithfulness of the Lord as He shows up in ways I never could have expected or imagined. This is our God! He has done great things... and more than I could have ever asked or imagined. To Him be the glory. (Ephesians 3:20-21)
I am praying that He opens your eyes and mine to the greatness of His work, the perfection of His plan, and His great love for us as we celebrate Easter.

Love you all,
Kristen